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Bearclaw
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Setting: Cafeteria on a wet Friday evening, the sun has just settled. The street was quiet and peaceful.

Loura was seated at the cafeteria by the roadside, gazing onto the puddles on the tarmac that reflected the light of a nearby street lamp.
Areal was approaching to the door of the cafeteria to get a sandwich when he saw her. Hesitated at first, but he then walked towards her.

Areal: Hi.

Laura: Uh?

(Awkward silence. Areal helped himself to the empty chair.)

Areal: Hi.

Laura: Thought you wanted to leave.

Areal: Was I even there in the first place?

Laura: It’s you who looked into the mirror and don’t see yourself there.

Areal: I was blind. And so is love. But all these anger? They won’t ever make you see at all.

Laura: Aren’t you tired of it?

Areal: It seems that I can’t ever get tired of you in any way at all.

Laura: Don’t you get it? I don’t want to see you ever again. Why are you doing this?

Areal: I wish I could pretend that you’re not there as well. But this world’s not big enough for the two of us.

Laura: Don’t you coat your words with honey. It just tastes bitter.

Areal: Of course, if something is left in the open for too long it becomes stale, and sometimes sour. I’m unable to digest the jealousy and it turned into insecurities.

Laura: So you realised how much of a coward you are now?

Areal: I was afraid of those hands that touched you. They seemed friendly but you don’t know where it’s been.

Laura: You don’t even know what he has gone through!

Areal: Then you don’t know what she went through. A woman scorned would scream her anguish. Just like how you did.

Laura: Why don’t you trust me?

Areal: Not you but him. Do you understand me now?

Laura: You misjudged me and I won’t forgive you.

Areal: The inability to forgive myself hurts more than that. I became someone else .

Laura: Then be someone else.

(Silence in despair. Areal stood up and gave Laura a forced smile. Laura refused to look at him. His smile then disappeared as he looked away and walked off. Laura however, took a glance at him after he left.)

*Characters were borrowed from LipLockLiquor.livejournal.com

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Oasis - Don't Go Away

A cold and frosty morning there's not a lot to say 
About the things caught in my mind 
As the day was dawning my plane flew away 
With all the things caught in my mind 

And I wanna be there when you're... 
Coming down 
And I wanna be there when you hit the ground 
So don't go away say what you say 
But say that you'll stay 
Forever and a day...in the time of my life 
Cos I need more time yes I need more time 
Just to make things right 

Damn my situation and the games I have to play 
With all the things caught in my mind 
Damn my education I can't find the words to say 
About all the things caught in my mind 

Me and you what's going on? 
All we seem to know is how to show 
The feelings that are wrong 

If I fall down...
Bearclaw
[info]sazzthevillain
Allah s.w.t. tested me hard during the month of Ramadhan and I failed miserably.

I wish I can turn back time.
Bearclaw
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Remember the point between rage and serenity.

Beautiful Drug
Bearclaw
[info]sazzthevillain


"Go find someone else better than me," I've always said.

I don't see a point trying to tell you that I love you ever since the first day I felt so strongly.
If I did, I would've done so a long time ago.
You don't have to remind me to let go.
That has always been the cause of my bruised ego.

Now you can hate me all you want.
Curse me, despise me and label me what you wish.
I've never labelled you anything before at all.
I just got tired of it.
But I've never felt as calm as before when I first knew you.

I'll miss the serenity you've once brought into my life.
I guess I'll never get to see what I've seen in my dreams turn into reality that I've never told you of.

Dream Catcher
Bearclaw
[info]sazzthevillain

A few nights ago, there was bitter love and a sentimental arguments. Prior to that, I had the strangest of dreams.

I was at the beach with the pitch black night sky dimly litted by the moon. The water was clear as crystal. The sea bed was visible.

I wasn't alone. Bijan, Syaiful and Amy was with me. We were sitting on smooth marble sand and grey pebbles. I remembered gazing into the moon and counting the stars. Across the horizon was another land.

"Bro, ada scrambler. Kau try naik ah," Bijan said.

I smiled. Kick started it. The scrambler was magic as I could dive under water with it. On the ocean floor were bright treasures but I wasn't tempted to pick it up.

I went back to shore and asked, "Kau rasa aku boleh bawak scrambler go across this vast ocean to get to the land kat sana tak?"

"Kau cuba try ah," Syaiful said.

"Jangan ah. Please jangan tinggalkan kita," Amy said as she grabbed hold of my hand. I gently brushed her grip. Bijan sat in frustration looking at my actions, but Syaiful smiled. Amy was close to tears.

I kickstarted the engine and made my way. She stood with her ankles in the water.

I squeezed the throttle and sped across the waters. However, halfway through the engine died and I was dragged into the depths of the ocean by the strong currents. Everything was a blur. I stayed calm and all I could hear was a cry from distant.

Next moment, I thought I saw my trusted friends next to me as I lay on a deathbed. I couldn't make out who they were. Then I woke up as I panicked, thinking I have died.

Probably a premonition of what's to come.

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 Nathaniel: This is the only way out that I know. I'm sorry. This will be the last time I hurt you. And if I ever come back, tell me to go away.

Demon Days
Bearclaw
[info]sazzthevillain
I hate it when I'm going through a phase I would call, "Demon Days."

Those days are decreasing in number as I grow older but the rage that is build could only get much more intense.

I need to calm down because I know I am stronger than this and one of the pillar of strength lies in patience.

Calm down.
Calm down.
Calm down.
Calm down.
Calm down.

Runaway
Bearclaw
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Lea: Why didn't you pack your running shoes since you told me you're not walking away?

Nathan: Eleana, just believe in what you need to believe. If you believe that I am next to you, then I am next to you. Otherwise, you can look for me elsewhere.

Lea: You know they say that love can never go wrong if you speak from the heart.

Nathan: Then it's tired of talking.

Lea: It has never even utter a word before! It should be me that should be walking away, and not you! I just don't understand what the fuck is wrong with you!

Nathan: Have you ever put on my shoes and tried walking on water? You don't even know how deep it gets! And you don't even know if you'll get to the other end! I'm throwing myself into the sea... just to get to the other side... to you.

-PAUSE-

Lea: I can help you if we do it together.

Nathan: I don't want you to. I don't want to see you drown because I care.

Nathan looks away and walks off.

Nathan and Lea: Ch3
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Nathan: Calm and collective young man. Composed and thoughtful. His words are spoken gently at a steady tone but has a depth to what it means. He is able to express himself through those words. Simple yet a complex man in his head. Loves Eleana but refuses to acknowledge his own emotions leaving her confused if she is loved. He loves crafting his words. The type of man who pretends he is strong in front of Eleana but behind her, he feels incompetent, never will be good enough and is willing to let her go if should someone better come up into her life.

Eleana: Loves Nathan equally as much but sometimes she wonders if Nathan really loves her. She is able to connect intellectually with Nathan who she believes that he is the one. However his words contradicts his actions and she hopes that he is not like other men, gently and swift with words but lack actions. She is constantly chasing him while he keeps running away yet tells her that he loves her. She's dying to see him to be hers like how she pictured him to be.



Nathan: We're like dirty laundries, you and me.

Lea: But some stains could never come off.

Nathan: At least we come out clean, if it's not fresh like brand new.

Lea: It has to stop spinning so vigorously or one of the laundries would eventually tear.

Nathan: We all get worn out sometimes.

Lea: I'm getting tired of you. It's not going to stay this way forever.

- Pause -

Nathan: Pretty natural. If nothing ever last forever, then my love for you is nothing at all.

Lea: There we go again.

Nathan: Life's a roller coaster isn't it?

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